I have no idea anymore.. can someone help?

From what I see you are only looking at the negative. Look at the positive and find something you love very deeply. Life is a gift that you shouldn't just get rid of. I'm sure there are many people that love you and your parents... well parents will be parents so they do care. It's not there fault and neither yours. Just love life and try to be happy, get a hobby and have fun with your life. As long as you are good in society, society and life will be good to you as well. :) Have fun...